4.14.2008

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I knew it was coming...

I saw the calendar days slowly slip by....

At first I felt okay... but as the days progressed I felt the weight in my heart grow...

a pressure on my chest.... slowing me down...

people are starting to call, checking in on me, seeing how I am "is it today? did I miss it?.....

I notice how things are exactly the same and how they are different from 3 years ago.....

Mason and I sat on the couch tonight feeling the weight with quiet sadness....

2 comments:

Tracey Carey said...

I never knew the exact day you considered his death. But I think about you this time of year every year. Since I've never been there I have no words to say. But you do know I am always here if you need someone to talk to. Let's do lunch sometime soon or take the kids to a park or something. Talk to ya soon!
Tracey

Julia Stewart said...

We estimate that that last day William was alive was Monday the tenth of April - he was stillborn on Friday the 15th of April... and his due date (and condolance visitation) was on Wednesday the 20th.