I have been talking to a lot of my friends in the past couple of days regarding William, grief, recovery and living a "normal" life again. I told my friend on the phone that when you are faced with a situation that you have no control over and that is irreversible... you have no other option to say... It's okay... because truly it is. My friend asked me "how do you get yourself to be okay?" Practice.
Here is my mantra... I meditated over these lines over and over again in the weeks after William was born:
Be content with what you have;
rejoice in the way things are.
When you realize there is nothing lacking,
the whole world belongs to you.
from the 44th proverb of the Tao te Ching (new english version) by stephen mitchell